Happy New Year!

Hey guys, thanks for following my sexploits in 2009... is there anyone out there that's been with me from version 1 until now? :)

Anyways, have a happy new year and may the new year usher in something good for you guys...

For me? I just want to be happy... might not have a relationship in the cards for me anytime soon but guess that's good for my sex life eh?

Wish me asses! :P

Kajang Confessions 2

Previously, on Oxymoronic Existence 4.0... http://oxystence.blogspot.com/2009/10/kajang-confessions.html ...

After a couple of months of silence, he finally resurfaced... I got an SMS from him, wanting to come over. He said he is working in KL, quite nearby, so he wants to drop by after work.

I was heading to Pavilion for dinner with my friend so I had to turn him down. He said he'd wait for me to finish dinner. He was even willing to pick me up at Pavilion after the dinner. Okay, that last part was only coz he doesn't know the way to my place... hehehe...

Anyway, after dinner, we met up and he drove me back to Permaisuri. We talked about stuff like work and movies but suddenly he steered right into the topic of sex. He asked if his 'baby' was doing okay... um, *pretend to think, pretend to think*

I can't be pregnant! I was the top. He must be the pregnant one! But we wore condoms! How...

*snaps back to reality* His hand was on my thigh.

Oh, Holden Jr... is apparently the baby in question... Holden Jr's fine. You have no idea how fine he is... heheheh... of course you guys know, Kajang Guy doesn't know...

To answer his question, I put my hand on his thigh and squeezed. He actually jerked and leaned sideways and landed his head onto my shoulder... while driving... he said I was driving him horny and wild. Wait till I grab your cock... which I did... but only for a second coz I did not wanna get into an accident...

The rest of the drive was uneventful, mostly because I did not want him to start hyperventilating...

Once we arrived at my place, he asked to use the toilet. I took the opportunity to take a shower. Once I was done, and he was done, he wanted to shower. With me. So I had to shower again. Nothing kinky or sexy happened. Just two guys soaping each other up, down, left, right and all around... while having ginormous hard-ons...

We dried up after and fell into bed. He immediately mounted me and ate me up. Like almost literally. He was biting, licking, gobbling every single part of me. Ears, nose, cheeks, neck, nipples, manboobs... which eventually would lead to cock sucking... I had to throw him off of me...

I remembered he liked necking so I necked him like crazy before moving on to the nipples. I kinda don't do his cock much coz I don't want premature ejaculation... but I did go to town on his ass, licking him long and deep.

Once he was sufficiently wet, and the whimpering got to a maximum volume... I sheathed Holden Jr and send him to battle. I put Kajang Guy on his belly and pushed Holden Jr through... there was resistance and the moaning got a bit too loud... but I managed to push through... gave him some time before I started the fucking...

But his body language was different from the last time... he was so stiff... and not in a good way... after a while, he asked me to stop because he could not take it anymore... he theorized that Holden Jr had grown up or doubled in size or something coz he just could not handle getting fucked... unlike the last time... sigh...

Me, being the gentleman that I am, immediately stopped and took out Holden Jr... Kajang Guy apologized profusely but I downplayed it... if you can't take it, you just can't take it then... maybe the next time, I could finish... wonder what happened to his ass... the first time he got poked, he survived through it but now that he's no longer a virgin, he could not take it? hmmm... watch this space..

Swing

Previously on Oxymoronic Existence 4.0...



After a while, we switched positions... to the doggy style... he moaned every time I pushed in... told you he was tall right? I could not really grab on to his shoulders so I grabbed his hips while grinding into him... soon, my hands started to slide downwards until I reached his groin... kept fucking him hard... and then I felt it... his dick... it was swinging wildly... up down all around... like in those pornos... it was semi hard and it kept on swinging to my fuck beat... hawt!



http://oxystence.blogspot.com/2009/11/merry-go-round.html



Swing Guy came over once again. The week after the events of the above post transpired.



Same like the last time, he came over because his housemates all wanted to go to the Tasik, so he swung by while they try their luck over there. Hehehe.



He asked if he could shower first. Obviously he was welcome to. Don't want no unpleasant odors now do we?



Soon as he's done with showering, he dried himself and went straight to bed. He said that he did not really have that much time since he hung out with the friends at Tasik first, then only he dropped by at my place.



Suits me. We immediately start. He laid on top of me and started kissing my neck. Wait, that's not kissing. That's lovebiting. Oh no! My neck's so gonna have marks tomorrow and people will start to question. Gotta stop him... gotta... wait... why do I care? That felt so good. Oooh, oooh... *squirms in delight*



After he's done marking me on the neck and on the chest... he went and sucked my cock, which was already hard from all the biting... after that, we flipped and he's now on his back....



I started to suck his nipples... and I was rewarded with manly moans... which turned me on more... as soon as I start to move towards the neck, he'd deflect... scared of being marked... hehehe... the boyfriend wouldn't like it...



Anyway, I went back to doing his nipples... I grabbed his dick, which was huge, hard and throbbing... lucky he's the bottom... phew...



Then I gave him a blowjob, but only as a warm-up before I started licking his balls and rimming the ass... which made him squirm harder and moan manlier (if that's even possible...)...



After that, I reached for the condom and suited up. I lubed Holden Jr well and lubed his ass. He raised his legs as I pointed Holden Jr to the right spot and pushed through. Swing Guy squirmed but as soon as Holden Jr poked through, he relaxed. I brought his legs to my shoulders and I went to town, fucking him hard.



No, there's no swinging cock action. Yet.



After a while, we switched positions. I placed his legs to the right and fucked him while he was on his side. His moans became different and his body was stiffer than usual. I did not get it at first but then I felt it. Okay, Holden Jr felt it. The tiniest of tremors. He was spurting. No, correction. He spurted already.



I saw the cum puddle on the bedsheet. Dammit. Now I gotta clean that up. Anyway, since I haven't climaxed, I pushed Holden Jr back in. His ass tremored again and this time I had the presence of mind to cup my hand underneath his quivering cock and caught globs of his semen that fell from his thick cock, in sync with my strokes...



After sperm waterfall had dried up, I wiped my cum-splooged hand and re-positioned him into the reverse missionary and started to fuck him hard until I cum.



So that's twice I fucked him within a couple of weeks where I don't need to do anything to his cock for him to come. Holden Jr in him was enough. A year ago, when we first met, this had never happened before. He could take me like a champ, no matter how long I lasted and yet he had never climaxed. Now? Hmmm...

Love Letter

To Whom It May Concern,

It's been a rough year for me since we had that fight...

We don't talk anymore... we don't meet anymore... we stopped being 'we'...

When we do talk, it's like there's so much distance between us...

I am sorry about what happened... I know I can't take it back...

And I know I've ruined it for us...

I tried moving on, I really did... tried to forget you... since there's no 'we' anymore...

But it seems you won't let me... whenever I start to pull away and not pine for you and you reel me back in...

Happens every time... the fact that you can tell amazes me...

Wish I can see you again... but I know it's not gonna happen...

Please let me go...

I've found someone... who is physically attractive... cute, sexy, adorable, hot, young...

Who wants me... who will talk to me all the time... who worries about my feelings... who wants to satisfy my every desire...

Please let me go... you're no good for me, for my heart... not anymore...

He is someone who other guys look at admirably... and sometimes hornily...

And when they saw me with him, they'd give me the evil eye...

Wondering how someone like me wound up with him...

Just like when I was with you...

Oh God, I just smiled thinking about our past...

Please let me go...

Look, he's sending me another MMS... he is so cute...

Why am I not replying to him instead of writing this?

Because he is not you...

Thanks for not letting me go...

Spots

Eric pressed the Stop button. He was severely out of breath. He had been on the treadmill for over an hour now. A glance at the mirror showed him his fat body and he was determined to go for another hour. He concluded that he had not been exercising enough since he had yet to lose but a single pound after nearly two months of being a gym bunny.

However, as soon as he stood straight, he started seeing spots and felt a bit woozy. He carefully stepped off the machine and slowly wobbled to a nearby chair. He felt slightly better as soon as he sat down.

“Hey, are you okay?”

Eric looked around to find the source of the rich, deep, sexy and velvety voice. The guy was asking from a nearby machine while working his torso.

“Yeah, I’m okay. Just a little sore.”

The guy got up from his machine and went to Eric.

“You were working your body pretty hard,” he said, putting a hand on Eric’s shoulder. “If you’re not careful, you could really hurt yourself.”

Eric smiled and said his thanks. It was then when he got a pretty good look at the guy. He was very hot and sexy with a killer body and dazzling smile. Eric had gotten nervous now because the guy’s hand was still on his shoulder and he was beginning to sport major wood.

“I can spot you.”

“Excuse me?” Eric asked, very surprised and embarrassed.

“You know, during the workout,” the guy explained. “We can spot each other.”

“Oh,” Eric breathed with a sigh of relief. “Okay.”

“Great,” the guy exclaimed, extending his arm. “My name is Barry.”

“Nice to meet you. I’m Eric.”

After that evening, Barry and Eric began working out together. They even arranged their schedules so that they could meet almost everyday at the gym. After about a month or so, Barry invited Eric for dinner at his favorite diner. Eric loved the food there so much that he agreed to have dinner there again with Barry. Although Eric would gladly eat any garbage thrown his way just to spend time with Barry.

“Hey, pass me the sugar.”

Eric passed Barry the sugar in between bites of his Swiss Mushroom burger.

“Take it easy, E,” Barry cautioned. “There’s more where that came from.”

“I can’t help it,” Eric admitted. “I get so hungry after our workout. I guess that is why I haven’t been losing weight.”

“Why do you need to lose weight?”

Barry had asked a very sensitive question. Eric had never been comfortable with his huge body and had tried everything to get rid of the extra flabbiness. He explained it all to Barry, who was listening very attentively.

“Listen, are you healthy?” Barry asked, matter-of-factly.

“Yes I am.”

“Are you sure?”

“I do a medical check-up every month,” Eric answered. “I am healthy as a fat horse.”

“Then why do you need to lose weight?”

Eric hesitated. He wanted to tell Barry everything but he was not sure whether Barry would understand. He decided to give it a shot.

“Because I am a fat ugly man.”

Barry banged the table and stunned the snot out of Eric.

“Don’t you ever say that, you hear?” Eric said, barely containing his anger. “You are not fat nor ugly.”

“Then what am I?”

“You’re a very gorgeous man, who happens to be a little overweight.”

Eric melted right there and then. He wished that Barry would love him as well but he knew that it could never happen.

“Thanks, Barry. That means a lot.”

“No problem.”

He flashed his dazzling smile again and Eric’s heart melted again.

***

“Do you have a girlfriend?”

Barry looked surprised when Eric asked that question. They were in the locker room, getting ready to shower.

“I don’t,” Barry answered, taking off his workout clothes. “You?”

Eric had to turn away because the man of his dreams was getting naked and he was beginning to pop a woody again.

“No. Who would want me?” Eric answered, again letting his inferiority complex run rampant.
Barry moved, quick as lightning, to Eric’s side and properly shushed Eric by putting a hand over Eric’s mouth.

“I told you before not to say that,” Barry breathed in Eric’s ear before letting his hand off of Eric’s mouth.

Eric was so turned on. It barely registered that a hot man was sitting next to him naked. He tried to adjust his legs so that his stiff penis would not show through his shorts. He fidgeted a bit and then he felt it. Barry’s warmth on the side his thigh. He turned and faced Barry, whose face was only inches away from Eric’s. Barry flashed that dazzling smile of his and melted Eric’s brain. The horny meter in Eric’s mind was going off the scales. However, Eric still manages to utter, “Do you want me?”

Barry responded by kissing Eric, full on the lips. Eric was too shocked to reciprocate the kiss but as soon as Barry put his arms on the sides of his face, Eric shook out of his stupor and began kissing Barry back passionately. Barry broke off the kiss and said, “I do.”

Barry got up and grabbed his towel, motioning that he was gonna shower. Eric just nodded breathlessly. He still had trouble comprehending what had just occurred. It might just be a dream. A wonderful wet dream but a dream nonetheless. However, just before Barry left for the shower, he bent down and gave Eric another deep kiss. That was how Eric realized that it was not a dream.

“I love you, E, just the way you are. You don’t have to change anything,” Barry said.

Eric was left there, sitting alone, smiling.

Doppelganger

You know about the theory that there are six people in this world that looks exactly like you? I am not sure if it's a Malay belief or the religion... but I've been told... and apparently in Mecca, there's one dude looking exactly like me... my mom saw him there...

Anyway, there's this guy that I did a while back... I saw him again on the LRT a couple of days after and I realize that he looked like my colleague. An elderly, fatherly type colleague... *shudder*

But when I did him, I did not see it... anyway, I was chatting on IRC when this guy contacted me. He said he was staying at a hotel near The Mall and was alone. He invited me over. He did not have pic for trade so it was like a blind date. Only I was the blind one cause I gave him my pic.

I was bored and really had nothing to do that day so I ventured out. Usually I would sit pretty at home and wait for them to come to me... and as I am writing this, I realize that I would break that rule if they're in a hotel. Hehehehe...

So I was on my way to his hotel when I realized I left the condoms and lube at home. I was taking a wild guess that the guy probably won't have em on him so I stopped by 7-11 and bought some condoms.

When I arrived at his place, we sat around and chatted a bit. It was like a budget hotel so there was no extra towel. I was all sweaty from the walking so I wanted to shower before getting it on... ya know, coz of the ick factor... but there's no extra towel so no shower. He told me to stand under the aircond unit so that I'd be dry again... which doesn't really work...

But anyway, he deemed me dry enough so we got it on... he seemed hesitant a bit but he was playing with my nipples... and just explored my body with his hands... I got bored so I sucked his nipples and played with his balls...

Then, I attempted to lick his ass but he did not lift his ass and legs enough to get access... apparently he has a bad hip... so I popped his cock into my mouth... large head by the way... but all I did was lick a bit and then put it all in my mouth... he was squirming like mad and tried to get me off of his cock... I did so and he spurted... sigh...

He suggested we rest first then we continue. I did not let him rest long, I immediately went to work. He knew where I was heading and objected for the non-presence of a condom. I whipped out the condoms that I bought. See? I knew it.

So he relented and let me do him. Unfortunately, he was really tight and I could not really poke through with just spit. I needed lube and he has nothing that can be used as lube. That 7-11 did not have lube...

Guess he too was getting antsy so he switched positions... oh, yeah, I had him on his tummy coz I know he could not take a cock in the ass after he had just cum... but he wanted to change positions and I was finally able to penetrate... after 5 seconds, he asked if he could put his legs down... bad hip remember...

So we continued fucking until I came... he said he enjoyed the fucking... it did not hurt him at all, even though he had not had anal sex in a year... he said my size was perfect for him...

Flames

The orange juice just sat there, gathering condensation. Its ice had started to melt and dilute the juice. Not that Adam realizes any of it. He was too busy staring off into space.

His mind kept flashing back to the rehearsal dinner. All kinds of kin were there, merrily doing their own thing, completely oblivious to the drama that was unfolding.

As soon as the thought of Zack crept into his mind, he was jolted back to reality. Adam quickly grabbed his glass of juice and drank from it. The bitterness made him wince. All the ice had melted and the good stuff had gone to the bottom of the glass. His hand was also wet from the condensation. He looked around for a napkin to wipe his hand. Not finding any, he dug in his pocket and took out his handkerchief and wiped his hand dry.

“Mind if I sit?”

Adam looked up. In his hazy state of mind, he did not notice Zack coming in to the restaurant.

Zack did not wait for Adam to answer. He sat down opposite of Adam and smiled. Adam avoided looking at Zack and his brilliant smile. A waitress passed by and Zack motioned to have the same thing that Adam was having.

“What are you doing here?” Adam asked, not bothering to hide his displeasure.

“Needed to get out of the room,” Zack answered nonchalantly, as though he had not heard Adam’s venomous tone. “Baby’s teething.”

Adam sighed.

Zack frowned.

“I was hoping that you’d forgiven and forgotten the thing that happened between us.”

“What would make you think that?” Adam asked.

“You came,” Zack said with a shrug.

“Yeah, I came. So?”

Zack gave him a look. It annoyed Adam to no end that he actually knew what the look meant.

“I came because Abang Man is the only one still talking to me. The rest of you shut me out.”

The waitress came back with Zack’s order. Adam closed his eyes for a moment. He opened his eyes and smiled at the waitress. She in turn, blushed and scurried away.

Zack saw that and had a twinkle in his eye. He kept smiling goofily at Adam.

“What?”

“You’re a heartbreaker,” Zack drawled out.

“What are you talking about?”

“You were flirting with the waitress, with your megawatt smile.”

Adam denied it. Vehemently.

“You’re a hot guy. I bet lots of girls follow you around.”

Adam gave Zack such an intense look that Zack felt his face was melting. Adam started to get up. Zack’s hand shot out and grabbed Adam by the hand.

“Adam, please…”

Adam ignored him, twisted his hand out of Zack’s grip and made a move towards the exit. Adam stopped at the counter and paid his bill and left. Zack rushed forward to follow but realized he hadn’t paid so he too stopped at the counter to pay. Soon as he was done, he went outside and ran to catch up to Adam.

“Hey, stop!” Zack said, panting. “Please.”

Adam stopped walking and whirled around to face Zack.

“What for?”

“Adam, please…”

Adam avoided eye contact but he did not budge. Zack took that as a good sign. He moved in closer and held on to Adam’s shoulders, trying to get Adam to look into his eyes.

“I’m so sorry for what happened.”

Adam still refused to look at Zack.

“Seriously. I acted defensively. I did not know what to do.”

Adam finally looked up.

“I get it. I really do,” Adam said. “I just don’t get how it was my fault.”

“Come on, baby…”

“Don’t you dare call me that!” Adam snapped. “You lost that right when you said I seduced you on your wedding day!”

Adam started to walk away.

“What does it take for you to forgive me?” Zack asked. “What does it take for you to take me back?”

Adam stopped walking and turned his head towards Zack.

“Go back to your wife and baby, Zack.”

Zack closed the distance between them.

“I’ve never stopped loving you,” Zack whispered into Adam’s ears.

Adam remained still. Zack took a gamble and put his hand on Adam’s waist. When Adam did not swat his hand away, he decided to be bold and hugged Adam. He felt Adam leaning into the hug slightly, which was a good sign.

“I’ve missed you…”

Merry Go Round

I had been going out of the city quite often these past weekends... one time, I was on my way back to KL from Johor... and I received a message from a past conquest... he's probably not in OE 4.0... we've met and done it about a year ago...

He said he was in town and wanted to meet up... so we set a time around 9-ish... around the time I'd arrive back in KL...

He's a tall kid, dark complexion like mine, has a goofy smile... legs that go on forever... slim...

But now he's bulked up... he said he's fatter but he looked good to me... he may be heavier now but he filled up in all the right places... nothing was too flabby... holding him in my arms while fucking him felt really good... but I am jumping ahead eh?

So we did the small talk when he arrived... seemed like he's a bit shy... guess it had been a while since I last slid Holden Jr in his warm mouth and ass...

He asked if we could turn off the TV and the bedroom lights... then we got it on... but he was still a bit hesitant... so I had to take the lead... sigh...

Pulled him on top of me and started licking his neck... he did the same for me after... but it seemed he wanted to give me a hickey... ordinarily I'd like that but I was not in the mood to be marked so I pushed him off... hope that won't be weird, me pushing him off...

It did not turn weird. He got up and took of his clothes and then undressed me. He mounted me and started to play with my nipples. Using his tongue. Nice...

I reached over and tweak his... and then grabbed his dick... I only had it in my hands for literally two seconds when he grabbed my hand and removed it from his dick. He said he was about to cum... sure enough, a couple of seconds later he unloaded... without touching... guess he failed to contain the orgasm...

I asked if I could still fuck him, he said he would very much like it if I would... so we suited up and he sat on it, pushing it in to the hilt... I grabbed his nipples and tweaked it while he moaned and started to ride Holden Jr...

Told you his legs were long yes? He kept changing his leg position... guess he was seeking the best position to get fucked deep... in the end, he pushed himself forward while holding on to my chest and I fucked him hard and fast from beneath...

After a while, we switched positions... to the doggy style... he moaned every time I pushed in... told you he was tall right? I could not really grab on to his shoulders so I grabbed his hips while grinding into him... soon, my hands started to slide downwards until I reached his groin... kept fucking him hard... and then I felt it... his dick... it was swinging wildly... up down all around... like in those pornos... it was semi hard and it kept on swinging to my fuck beat... hawt!

I could not contain myself anymore... pushed him down hard on his stomach and penetrated as I lay on top of him... then I started fucking him hard yet again... he asked me if I would cum soon... twice...

Forgot that he had spurted... so I quickened my pace... his moans grew desperate... like it was hurting him... but he did not want me to stop... or at least that's how it sounded... I assured him I was close already... which was true... soon as I spurted, we went to clean up and hung out a bit until his friend came to pick him up...

The One That Got Away

*am trying something new - no smut*

I haven't had a lot of relationships (which I guess is quite good for this blog yes?). Yes, I've fallen in love before and either I got my heart stabbed right at the beginning or I get dumped...

Anyways, there was this one guy... I had always been attracted to him and I am still wondering until today whether he was attracted to me or not... bear in mind, this was during my awkward phase when I had low self esteem and did not like myself AKA not a slut yet...

His name was Nicolas. He was a German foreign student at USC. He came for his MBA in 2002, the year I graduated. However, me without my working permit, I decided that it would be more fun hanging out at campus and helping out with orientation. It wasn’t Nicolas that I first noticed.

I first noticed Thomas, another German student, which is another story altogether. However, as it were, I was flirting with Thomas on the first day of orientation when Nicolas suddenly came up to us and joined in on the conversation. I thought it was slightly odd. I had only seen him once before at the International Office but he was always flanked with two other Germans.

There was also that one time, during one of the orientation speeches that I was helping out with that I noticed Nicolas looking at me. It threw me off slightly that a hot guy would be looking my way with his legs spread wide open and I could see his inner thighs. By the way, Nicolas was so my type. Tall, blond and European. Makes me hot and bothered just thinking about it.

Of course there this one time he sang to me while everybody else was on the campus tour. I noticed he was looking at me, although he probably did not think I would because he was wearing shades. Unfortunately for him, his back was facing the sun so the light made the shades transparent. I could totally see him mentally undressing me with his eyeballs. Okay, so I made up that part. A girl can dream.

Also, at the moment, I was fixated with the boy with huge crotch that I never really gave it a second thought. I think I had this fantasy that I guy I’m pining for should pine back and I really did not give anyone else a chance for some pining action.

Anyway, Nicolas said he’s had the campus tour when he visited in July. It was a response to my statement: “Maybe you should listen to what they’re saying,” instead of lingering near me and mentally undressing me. So, that was when I started chatting him up since Thomas was nowhere near my sight.

Also, had to admit that my heart did beat slightly faster when Nicolas was standing close to me. I stuttered right through some of the questions. When he said he enjoyed singing, I asked him what kind of songs does he do. He replied anything. With one eyebrow raised, I dared him, “Even Whitney?” He shrugged and answered, “Mariah too.” Woah! Could he be any gayer?

So he proceeded to sing because I put on my nonchalant/non-believer face on. He sang to me. A Whitney song! I don’t exactly remember what it was but no one has ever sung to me before. I so enjoyed being serenaded.

After that serenade, we parted ways but met up again for the International Student Dinner. I arrived early, in my faux leather/PVC pants and was chatting up a storm with the other students and catching up. Then he breezed into the lounge and promptly left his flanks and caught up with me.

I was talking to this one Thailand guy and he joined in the conversation. I found out quite a lot about this guy. He’s one of those outdoorsy guys, very into rock climbing and stuff like that. He has one of the biggest feet I’ve seen since Ronald McDonalds! It was a size 15! Mine were only 12 and the Thailand guy’s were 13. I’ve heard about people with big hands and feet have big… brains.

He spent the entire night with me. We played pool and table tennis and ate together too. That was actually one of the last times I saw him for more than 10 minutes. After that, I got a job up in Colorado Springs and I did not see him for months. I finally saw him again three weeks before I left the States for home.

I had quit my job then and went to the university to catch up with old friends and enemies. I went to the International Student Club meeting and he was there as well. At the end of the meeting, both him and I were lingering around the International Office. Finally, I mustered enough courage to ask him out but he beat me to the chase.

He asked if he could play table tennis with me, if I was free. I told him I was free but I have three more weeks left before I had to leave the States. So we went and played for an hour. I asked him if he wanted to go bowling or something. He said he’d consider it. I gave him my number. Lo and behold, he called me and we went bowling.

I was ecstatic. I mean, it’s not like this guy was lacking friends and yet he chose to go out with me. One bowling date became two and the next thing I know we were having suppers and dinners together and we even went and saw a movie. My last ever night in the States was a Tuesday night, which was also a bowling night.

I told Nicolas about it when we were bowling the week before and he said he might be busy with papers. I was resigned to the fact that I would not be seeing him after that night. I was so surprised that he called me and took me bowling again. He said he was busy but he still would make time for me because it was my last night. We said goodbye after that because I might not see him tomorrow.

I did see him the next day at the university. I went to say goodbye to everyone and he showed up as well. He grabbed my head from behind and in front of everyone, he ruffled my do. Dayyyymn, not the do! Anyway, we chatted for a while until he had to leave for a class. He extended his hand and I shook it. He wanted to let go but I firmly gripped it, to not let him go. He looked confused at first. Then, he gripped my hand back.

After a couple of minutes, I let go but he did not. He held on to me for another 10 minutes. Just us guys, holding hands for all the world to see. Then, he smiled and let me go and walked away. Everyone had coy smiles plastered on their faces looking at me. That was the last I saw/heard of Nicolas. Looking back, I wished I had the guts to approach him way back when, as opposed to when I had the expiration date looming... maybe we could've been something... sigh...

Phobia

Have you guys seen Phobia 2? The Thai horror anthology? Some of the men in this movie are hawt!! Especially the one on the far right of the above poster... Charlie Trairat...

He was cute as a kid. Saw him in another Thai horror few years back called Dorm... now he's grown up and had turned into a hot young man... me likey... heheheh

Grrr!! So hot!!


Here he is, trying to save the stupid girl... hehehe, I am officially a fan now...

Retro Post: Latino

During my student years, I was not very active sexually. Okay, there were a couple of attempts at sex but that was pretty much it.

Even when I went to America to study. I was too busy studying and working to pursue sex. But the thought had crossed my mind. I did go clubbing once or twice but nothing happened. I was not confident coz I was way too fat back then. Not that I am skinny now but I was really, really big. Friends now are shocked if they see my old pictures. Now I am at a manageable size I think, not too fat, not too skinny...

Anyway, in America, there had been all these phone sex lines. Not that I call or subscribe to it. I only tried the personals. On the phone. You listen to people's messages and contact them.

There was this one guy who wanted to hook up with me. He was a hot Latino guy. Muscled and tattooed and everything. Mind you, it was like a blind date coz you don't see them over the phone right? Unless it's now where there's 3G and stuff...

So he came over and he was as advertised. Latino. Muscled. Tattooed. A bit shorter than me. But still hot. Dayyyymmnn.. Me likey...

He came in to the living room and asked for a porno tape to be popped in the VCR (yes, this was back then, before DVD exploded onto the scene) and he stripped off. God, you have no idea how hot and bothered I was... I only had sex twice previously. Once with the guy who popped my front cherry and the other time with this Arab guy who dry humped me and spurted a bucket on my back...

Muscled Latino whipped out his cock and asked me to suck it. I of course wanted to but somehow... I was a bit scared and intimidated. Not that it was very huge or anything. Guess I was still young, inexperienced and not used to one night stands... huh... I've come a long way eh? :P

But I did do it. Put his cock in my mouth. And played with his balls and also his muscular body. After a bit, he asked to go into the bedroom. He stood facing me and played with my nipples. I stroked his cock...

He asked for a condom, which I actually had because there had been Sex Week the week before and they were giving out condoms to promote safe sex. I tell ya... I was so green back then that I blushed crimson when they handed me the condom... ya know, Malay mentality... taboo... that was pretty out there... receiving condoms out in the open... guess that's how I've built this thick skin where I could just go buy condoms at the pharmacy or 7e without flinching.

I know other guys who have been sucking cock since before puberty but still can't get up the nerve to go and buy condoms... sigh...

Anyway, he laid back and raised his legs. I put the condom on and attempted to penetrate. Attempted is the key word here. I just could not. He went into the doggie style position and asked me to try again. I still can't. Not that I was not hard, it was more because I did not even try to... I was faking it. He was getting impatient. Wanting to get fucked...

You see, I was in love at that point. And every time I almost poked, I kept seeing my guy's face and I just could not. I've always been like that. Every time I am in love with someone, I could not have sex with someone else. I am a one man - man. Loyal and hopelessly romantic. What? What's with the raised eyebrows? I am currently single. All my sexcapades happened during my single years... :P

Anyways, since I could not do it, I asked him to masturbate and I watched as he came... hawt!

After that, he cleaned up and we chatted a bit before he left. Up until now, I still get messages from him, asking if I had returned to America coz he wanted to finish what we started...

Nude Guy Action

Most of you guessed correctly (except for cute Terry, sorry cutie, ehhehe)...

Yup, the guy was tearing the condom pack to get the condom out in the open and on to Holden Jr...

I have the pictures of his next moves (actually putting it on, lubing it and sitting on it and riding it...) and in fact, I have videos too... should I put it up? Nah...

Don't want the world to see Holden Jr... he's shy... like Holden... very shy... ehhehe...

Looks like a short update for now guys, it's 1AM and I have to pack for my trip to Melaka... will not check in until Sunday night or Monday morning... have a good weekend you guys! :)

Fetishes

I suppose everyone has fetishes. Something that would bring them to the edge faster. I myself has a vampire fetish. No, not wanting to boink Spike or Angel... well, if they asked me to, I wouldn't say no... to both the characters or the actors...

But I digress... Bites on the neck... that is what turns me on...

Anyway, there's this one slim guy, years back, when I first moved to the city... he had this peculiar fetish... golden shower... now golden shower I can handle... in fact, I've done a couple of other guys who are into golden showers...

For the uninitiated, golden shower enthusiasts are basically pee lovers... some of them loved to be peed on while some even go to the extreme of drinking the pee... yes, yes, I've fed my urine to guys... what? they asked for it... and I get to fuck them after... win win sitch... um, does that mean I too am a golden shower enthusiast?

In any event, besides golden shower, this slim guy was also into scat. Yup, he referred to himself as the human toilet. In fact, whatever it is that a chubby guy dishes out, he'll take it... pee, cum, scat...

I guess I am not as kinky as he is coz I found that totally gross... but we met up and I did the whole peeing in his mouth thing... and he rimmed me, the deepest rimming I've ever had... guess he really wanted it badly...

But no, I've never used his mouth as a toilet...

Cut to: the present... I was parking (read: logged in but not actively doing anything) in IRC and this guy messaged me... asking if I would pee in his mouth... as I said before, I am no stranger to peeing on people or in people's mouth so I did not really mind...

He also wished to ingest my cum... which is okay... but then, he pulled out the 'scat' card... turned me off... before I could press on, he logged off... guess he knew I was turned off... what are the chances this present day scatman is actually the same guy I did years ago...

Hmm, I think the chances are pretty high that it's the same guy... have I gone full circle? I don't think I've done everybody yet... hahahah... I am not that big a slut.. wait, maybe I am... am I?

Bite Me!

I dunno exactly how this guy got my number... I am assuming it's from IRC... he is Malay, short and chubby... not exactly cute... I am pretty sure when we chatted, he did not give me his picture... I really oughta learn by now that people who dun give their pictures online are often times than not, um, not good looking... hence they dun wanna give their pics... like me, I dun wanna give my pics here, even when you guys ask for it many times, ehheeh...

Anyways, he said he wanted to come over and he wants me to bite his thigh. I, of course, is open to all things kinky, so I agreed to host a session.

He arrived and I was disappointed. Really got to learn my lesson about the no pic thing...

But I was game for a little biting session.

So we wound up in the bedroom and he stripped. He did not want anything other than being bitten on the thigh. As soon as I start biting, he started moaning. He even got hard. Precum everywhere.

He asked me to suck his cock but I looked at the precum mess and I declined. He did not trim his bushes. That, plus precum. M-E-S-S-Y.

No way I am mussin' up my hair and make-up. He did not even lift a finger to touch me, let alone do my nipples or suck my cock...

So I just gave him a handy while biting him. He finally came and left. Phew.

But that's not the end of it. He messaged the next morning, asking for a second session. I told him I need him to do me as well. He said all the other fags have never asked him to do anything. They all bit him and sucked him dry. I told him to go see those other fags then coz that's not how I play it. At the very least, if you are effing hawt, then you can just pose pretty and have someone do you. But you ain't... so he said he won't come a-knockin' anymore then... good riddance..

But that's not the end of it. He called me some time ago. I did not know who it was but I was busy at karaoke. Then he called again wanting to come over. I was at home and he was already in the area so I said okay. He asked if I could bite his thigh. Immediately I knew who he was and regretted the fact that I did not bother to do a thorough credit report...

Same scenario. No touching me, want me to bite him and suck him dry. I told him I was too tired for anything and attempted to finish him off as soon as possible with a handy. I did ask him if he wanted to do something other than lying on the bed like a lump. He said he would only lie there so as soon as he came (all over my sheets, damn bitch, now I have to wash them...), he put his clothes on, without even cleaning up and left. I soooooooooo did not stop him.

Freddy

Just a quick update... went to watch a movie today... if you ask him, he'd say I was the naughty one who started it... but I say it was him... he grabbed my hand first... so I put it on his thigh... then he grabbed my cock, and I grab his... and before we know it, zippers were unzipped and we were giving handies to each other...

I wanted to finger his asshole but it was hard to reach it in our seating position so I just got the area between the ballsac and the hole...

Kept fingering him until my hand cramped and I just resumed kneading his balls... but his cock was limp by then... come to think of it, he jerked a bit before... hmm...

After the movie, he said he came coz I fingered his sensitive area...

Travelin'

I've known this guy since since last year I think. He'd message me via Manjam but that's all we did. Messages via Manjam. Never actually meeting.

One day, some time last week or the week before that, he asked for my number and said that he might be in KL soon for a seminar.

However, he insisted on meeting me up before the intended day, which was Sunday. So Friday, after the movies, I went and met with him in Ampang. He drove me back to his place, but not before driving like mad to Ampang Point to meet a client. Sigh. Now I have to be Catherine Zeta Jones to his Michael Douglas.

No, he's not THAT old but he is older with greying hair. He is a bit of a softie, walks with his butt high in the air and a gait that would make The Pussycat Dolls cry with envy... but all is saved coz his face is battle-scarred and all manly and tanned. Phew.

And he kept insisting he used to be a nice guy but now he's all rude and mannish. Yeah, right.

Don't even get me started on his principals and beliefs. I mean, don't get me wrong. You can have your own views and stuff, but don't ridicule other people's beliefs just coz you don't believe in them. Oh, and kept saying, "typical Malaysian mentality" and "when I was in Japan"...

Dude, please. You're not the only one who's been overseas.

Example 1: "I dun get how u can't be naked with a girl. In Japan, me and my boyfriend would fuck with a straight couple fucking next to us."

What can I say? I am gay and allergic to womanly parts...

Example 2: "I dun get Malaysians. They're loyal to their partners. In Japan, we're all about open relationships. Even having threesomes and orgies."

What the... he's is soooooooo living under a rock in Malaysia... and telling me those things, like I am some sort of virgin... hahahah...

Also, I think he's in love with himself. He kept telling me that a lot of guys like him and wanna do him and that in his area, everybody knows him and scared of him. He's apparently the (Fairy) Godfather of the area...

So, we're back at his place... he's watching some sort of Malay movie about racing cars... KL Drift or something... Farid Kamil's cuter and cuter these days... ehhehe...

Anyways, I had a boil on the back of my head so I was not really comfortable and it was quite painful so I retired to the bedroom earlier than him. At this rate, I think I'd fallen asleep first.

He came in half an hour later. We cuddled first. He said before that he enjoys foreplay and stuff but he was the one that grabbed my cock first. It did not seem like he wanted kissing so I went and licked his neck. He squirmed and kept swatting at the back of my neck, where the boil is. (*(^&%(&(*&)%$^*(###...

I moved to do them nipples and the swatting intensified. Son of a...

Then I decided to do his balls coz my head would be out of swatting range. Apparently, he's a swatter when he's hot and bothered. Licked his balls and his asshole. He was squirming like mad. I wanted to suck his cock but I saw that it was a small cock. Disappointing. He was a slim guy so I'd imagine his cock to be more substantial. Not that it really matters though but he made it sound like he was packing heat.

But then again, he was the bottom so his dick size mattered not. So I laid back and let him do me now. As I had thought, he went straight for my cock, all moaning and foamy at the mouth, like he's never had cock before. Hmm, thought he was wanted by a lot of guys?

After he was satisfied, he immediately laid back and aimed my hard cock at his hole. Unfortunately, he did not have any lube so it made me wonder how he could have gotten fucked all these while by all those guys...

I used spit but he kept saying it hurt like hell, even before I penetrate... So we used some sort of oil that he had around. I tried penetrating four times before he'd allow me to fully penetrate. So much for being a cock slut eh?

I fucked him hard and fast and left no room for any romancing or slow fuck coz he kept swatting at the back of my head. I came and pulled out and went straight to clean up. He waited for me to finish him off. The pain was unbearable but I gathered all the strength I had left. I licked his nipples while he masturbated. He asked me if I could fuck him again. I couldn't coz of the pain so I just stuck a finger in for him to climax.

He went to clean up and never came back in until I was half way asleep. Kept saying his ass hurt. He confessed that it had been one and a half year since he was last fucked... what the? so he lied to make him seemed better than he actually is... sigh...

Kajang Confessions

Whenever people ask me what my type is, I always answer, "No type." I do em all and I don't really discriminate. As long as they're cute, or hot, heheheeh...

So much so that some of my friends nicknamed me Alam Flora. Hmph.

Anyways, this post is about an Indian conquest. I don't think I've posted an entry about Indians before. At least not this year.

I've been in touch with him for a couple of months now but we haven't had the pleasure of meeting yet. He contacted me via Gayromeo.com and then he sent me MMS.

Very big dick. Lucky for me, he said he doesn't mind getting fucked. Yay!

So we finally met last week. Even though he was a bit fuzzy about Bandar Sri Permaisuri, even though he was a bit fuzzy. But after a couple of SMSes and calls, he found my flat and made his way up.

He was a slim guy. Cute.

We made small talk a bit, while watching TV. Now that my room has switched to the TV room, there really is no need for the action to shift places. :)

He started cuddling and before you know it, clothes were flying off. He straddled me and ground our crotch together. He licked my nipples as I play with his huge dick.

Just as he was about to suck my cock, I pushed him on his back and played with his nipples. He responded by squirming underneath me. Every time I try necking, he avoids it. Guess he's ticklish there. So I concentrated on the nipples. Drove him crazy.

Then I laid back and let him take his turn. He immediately took my cock to his mouth and gave world class service. After I got really hard, he maneuvered his body so that we could do 69. I obliged but I did not suck his huge dick. I did his balls. He moaned in between licking cocks. I could feel my chest getting wet. Big cock, gallons of precum... who knew?

I pushed him up so that he's straddling my chest now. He continues sucking my cock and moaning loudly as I started to rim him. Getting him ready.

After a while, he stopped sucking me and sat up, fully enjoying my tongue in his ass. I pushed him off and had him on his back. I raised his legs and continue rimming and opening him up. He thrusted his ass in my face and moaned.

I reached for the condom and lube. He kinda stopped me and said that he was a virgin. Well, his ass was. I rimmed him and then asked him what he wanted to do next. He did not say anything. He just held on to his legs.

I took it as a 'Yes' so I suited up and lubed his ass. That was when he tensed up and I had a hard time, pun intended, penetrating his virgin ass. I told him to turn around and lie on his stomach. I mounted his ass and pushed through. This time it went in with a pop. He hissed and moaned. In pain, I think.

But he did not ask me to take it out. So I gave him some time to get used to Holden Jr and then I started working it. His moans started turning into pleasure ones and at some point, he started saying yes to every stroke and stuck his ass out with every stroke.

When I came and we went to clean ourselves, he said it hurt a little in the beginning but it stopped hurting after that. He also said he had no idea why he allowed me to fuck him when all others wanted a piece of that ass and failed...

He left my place soon after we cuddled for a bit. Another cherry popped! Yay!

Sleeping

This is not one of mine... he's my sister's toy boy... yup, the slutty apple did not fall far from the tree...

yes, it's not a nudie shot but look at the crotch area... his morning woody is popping up... good for my sister eh? :P

Retro Post - Cherry Pop

I have looked through the archives of OE 4.0 and have not seen this story. I know I've posted it a couple of times already. Apologies for those who've read it. This is more for the newbies... A retro post, the night I was fully inducted into gaysluthood...

It all started out innocently enough... chatting on the internet... well, if you can consider that innocent... I was still innocent, young and had no experience in meeting up guys, sex or anything gay... and I was fat... well, fatter than I am now... have lost quite a bit of weight... still chubby though (a little nod to them chasers, hehehe)... yes, yes, I am one of those meaty ones, not at all skinny or muscle-y...

Anyways, after a while of chatting online and getting confused, someone messaged me and we got to chatting. It turned out this guy was a chaser. He has this fantasy of being fucked by a chubby guy. He then asked if he could come by. Lucky for me, my housemates all were on holidays. Yup, this was during college in PJ. I was the only one in the house. He said he wanted to hang out and chat so I told him to come over. I don't think I was prepared for sex.

So he came about half an hour later. We chatted and hung out a bit. Then suddenly, he ripped off his clothes and said, "Shall we fuck?"

I was confused and scared but turned on at seeing this naked guy. By the way, this was my first time chatting so I did not even have a photo on the Internet and this guy also did not provide his. But me likey. He was a gym bunny. You can tell by the pecs. Grrr...

He ripped off my clothes and immediately lay down on the bed and raised his legs. I looked at the inviting ass but I did not know what to do, literally. I told him that was my first time so he made me lay down and he climbed on top of me. He spat on my cock and his fingers. Once he lubed himself, he lowered himself on my hard cock.

It did not go in at first. He spat on it more. Then he lowered himself, kinda roughly until my dick head popped through. He grimaced and moaned. After that, he started riding me hard. Now that I think about it, the scene would be a turn-on but back then, I was scared. And it hurt. Yes, his asshole sliding on my cock... that hurt.

Once he got tired he got off of me and asked me to fuck him doggy style. He said to penetrate and then just move my hips in and out and grind. So I did just that. Even though I was a virgin, I had seen a couple of gay porns. I was familiar with the fucking but I just clammed up coz the guy was more experienced and did not go slow with me.

After I was done with doggy, I sat on my ass and asked him to sit on my cock again. He happily obliged. At one point, he stopped riding and asked if I had come. I haven't. I keep changing the positions and every time I do, he'd ask if I had come.

In the end, he asked if we could stop the fucking coz it had gone on too long and he had to go pick up his nieces. He told me to go wash my dick and then he'd send me to go get dinner.

In the car, he kept mentioning that my dick is very substantial and that he felt good getting fucked. He also said that girls would love my dick, especially since I could last that long...

I never saw him after that. He did not pick up my calls or answer my messages. So that was it. How I lost my cock cherry and how I got shoved down the path of sluttiness. A one night stand.

It was not even a finished one night stand. I did not come yet. Sigh.

Question...

Um, I have this dilemma... okay, not really dilemma... but I am not sure what to do here...

Lately, I have this urge to post one or two nudie pics on Oxymoronic Existence... not my nudies... dun wanna scar people's psyche for life with my nakedness... huhuhu...

Nudies of my conquests... they are tastefully taken, no face or anything... nobody would be able to recognize them... but you can see the things that count most... the goodies... heheeh...

Should I? Or would it be like a breach of trust? Hmm... what do you guys think?

Hindrance

I knew this was gonna happen one day. I am surprised it took this long to happen. After 4 incarnations, countless posts and of course conquests, Oxymoronic Existence finally hindered my dating life.

Guess I had it coming yes?

Other sluts and tramps get away relatively clean coz they did not write about them doing so many people that they lost count eh?

Sue me. I am a writer. I love to write and this was an easy topic. Lotsa material.

Sigh. Can't believe I am gonna justify myself... I am a single guy who happens to be having sex with other guys. It's not like I am in a committed relationship and I was cheating on someone.

But the thing that gets me most about all this... oh, right, forgot to tell you guys what happened... I got dumped because of this blog. It mattered not that we had pretty good dates and good chemistry and stuff. All coz a couple of people blabbed about this blog to the guy I was seeing and he fled.

So back to the thing that gets me most... the people who (in a way, was attempting to be a good friend) told on me... they don't know me from atom, other than what they read, which they would not even know is the truth or fiction, accurate or exaggerated... and the worse thing is, the guy I was seeing... believed it all and just fled... into the arms of a good friend of mine... sigh...

All the dating and the sharing... meant nothing... sigh...

Wait... maybe that's why I am perpetually single... coz every time I try, someone would pull up Oxymoronic Existence, now in version 4.0, and they all skedaddle like I am the First Evil or something... :(

Oh well, back to the drawing board I guess... sorry guys, if you were expecting a sexcapade post and you got is a rant...

Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming...

Squeal

Previously on Oxymoronic Existence...

The Chi Top Guy has been coming over to my place for a couple of times more after the threesome. Guess he likes being fucked in the ass.

The first time he came over, it was not too bad a session. It appeared he loves taking nudie pictures. So do I. Hhehehe. So during the first session, he whipped out a camera and so did I. He was taking pictures of Holden Jr while I, the more experienced of the two, took pictures of him. Yes, him. As in the whole body. Naked.

He sooooo did not notice. Either I was being too stealthy or he was too caught up snapping away at Holden Jr. Too caught up I think. How can one be stealthy when the flash went off and lit up the entire room. I also got him sucking my cock and sitting on it. :)

Anyways, like I said. It was a good session. He liked sucking cock and getting fucked. And he was a fast learner when it comes to bottoming. I mean, I gave it all I got and he was taking it like a seasoned bottom.

So the third time he came a knockin' for Holden Jr, I was quite into the idea. Yes, it's a turn on fucking a top in the ass. Unfortunately, his personality came through and I found him annoying as hell. That was via SMS so I held off on the meeting. Until recently.

Guess I was horny and he was a willing ass so I agreed when he wanted to come over. Normally, he'd picked me up from my office and I'd guide him back to my place. Apparently, he still could not remember the way.

And yes, he was annoying as hell still. I was amazed we made it to the bedroom at all...

So, there we were, getting ready to get it on when he decided to whip out his camera. I was not in the mood to be photographed coz when he is photographing, his mouth is not on Holden Jr. And he was annoying as hell, so I decided not to reward him. I told him not to do it and just suck it but he still took a couple. Fine.

Back to the sucking. But then, he whipped it out again and started to take more pics... I snapped. I threw a diva sissy fit and knocked the camera off of his hand and told him the session was finished. I could not take it anymore.

He tried sweet talking me but I was adamant I did not want to go through with it. He apologized and asked that I lay back and let him do everything. Okay, okay, so I was not that mad but I needed to teach him who's the dominatrix in that room. Hhehehe.

And it seemed he learned his lesson and he was soooo afraid of me. I told him to suck it, he sucked it like he wanted to tore it off with his mouth. Hehehhe. But after a while, his annoying personality came through still...

When I wanted to fuck him, I told him to go doggy but he just laid back and raised his legs. I told him again. He refused, wanting to be fucked on his back. I went to bitchy diva mode immediately and moved him around like a rag doll and told him he'd better go doggy, and he did.

I penetrated him hard. He was moaning and tried to get me to pull out but I did not care. I held his hips and got him to lean back against me. He was on knees, moaning in pain. I knew it was evil of me but I could not help it. Something in me snapped. I started fucking him slowly while stroking his hard cock. Then his moans of pain turned into moans of pleasure and he was moving his hips against me.

I just held my position and my hand just grasped his cock. He was moving so he was riding my dick and his own dick was moving in my hand. I wanted to stay that way until he came coz that would be hot but then I would not come so I pushed him back into the doggy position.

His moans alternated between pain and pleasure. I started to fuck him deep and hard. Suddenly, his moans turned into something else. High pitched squeal. Seriously. And sometimes he would say stuff like 'Yes' or 'Fuck Me' but in that high pitched squeal.

It was creeping me out but turned me on as well. Hheehhe.... so I pushed him down on his stomach and continue fucking him deep. He continued the squealing. Guess the squealing was a turn off coz it took me quite a while to come... he was breathless when I was done. He said he really enjoyed it and asked if I had stuffed him to the hilt. Of course I did. He said he thinks he was bleeding and that there might be a rip.

Bull. He tried to argue. I accidentally moved my hips when I was propping myself up with my elbows and his voice went squeal-y during his argument. So I tested a theory. I pumped into him randomly and all the words that followed were squeal-y. Funny...

Then he moved his hips and the 'Yes' squeals came back. So I continued fucking him for a few more minutes... just for the fun of it... hehehe...

Once I pulled out, he grabbed Holden Jr. I swatted his hand away. He was still adamant that I tore his ass wide open and he was bleeding. Dumbass much? The condom was clean (thank Goddess eh? No nasty chocolate surprise...). So we went to the toilet and got cleaned up. He left after but I noticed he was walking funny and he hissed when he sat down to put on his socks. Maybe I did tear something...

Porn Moan

You know how a good moan is essential to a porno scene? As much as the actors and their bodies? Oh, you did not know? A good moan is essential to a porn scene.


Like the bottom getting fucked by the top right? If he were to lay there, just taking it, it wouldn't have the same impact as a good, loud moan or some other audio effects... right?

Anyway, during raya break, I got a chance to hook up with this Malay slim guy from Putrajaya. He contacted me via Gayromeo.com and said that I am cute and huggable and that he liked my profile. A bit excessive no? He only needed to say I am cute and I'd do him already. I mean, of course he has to be cute as well. And yes, he is...

So we SMS-ed and made plans. We were supposed to meet up Friday night, but apparently he could not wait so I scheduled him after my karaoke session with the girls from the office. He arrived just as I was getting out of my girl friend's car.

He seemed a bit shy and distant. I thought maybe he was not into having sex with me so I asked him if he wanted to come up. He was agreeable so we went up. He smelled so nice so I knew he had showered (and hopefully cleaned the backstage area as well) so I went and showered while he sat on the couch.

After, I took him to the bedroom and as per usual, like my other 'guests', they'd comment on the huge amounts of DVDs on my display rack. As I was toweling off, he settled on CSI on Astro and laid back to watch it. As soon as I lie down next to him, he snuggled closer. So we watched CSI in the spooning position until a commercial break.

Then he jumped up and turned off the lights and the TV and started to undress himself. I immediately attacked his nipples. He moaned (not that moan though) and squirmed. Then I did his neck. Again, he was squirming and moaning (not the moan). I took his hard cock in my mouth for a few seconds before he asked if we could do a 69.

69 it is then. He went at it with gusto. Quite a nice blowjob. Although he ignored my balls completely. Guess he felt at home with a hard one in his mouth. I for one was aiming for his hole but the balls kept getting in the way so I put em in my mouth and sucked. His moans were muffled by my cock in his mouth.

After a while, I roll him on top of me. He seemed to know that I was in rimming mode coz he climbed on top and straddled my chest so that his asshole would be exposed to my face and his balls and cock hidden away. All the while with my hard cock in his mouth.

As soon as I start licking away, he moaned (almost the moan) into my cock. Then I pushed him off of me and my cock. I noticed that my shirt was wet. Precum. Pool of precum on my chest. Sigh.

So I took it off and raised his legs and rimmed him again. This time he moaned the porn moan!! I actually stopped to take it in. Damn I was so horny after that. I rimmed him more. The deeper I go, the more pornographic his moans got and the hornier I got.

Finally, I just could not take it anymore, I sheathed Holden Jr, lubed up and penetrated. He was biting his lips and whimpering as I fuck him hard. Once in a while, he just could not bite down and let out the pornographic moan. I fucked him harder and deeper.

After a while, I turned him onto his stomach (without taking Holden Jr out mind you) and fucked him hard until I come. Yes, in that position, his moans definitely pornographic.

After the cleanup, he got ready to leave but not before he said he enjoyed the fucking. Me too. Me too. :)

Belgian Bazooka

Why do some bottoms never bother to clean their... you know... bottoms? Sigh...

Someone messaged me over at Gayromeo.com wanting to get to know me. Sure, why not right?

Kinda young though. But okay looking I guess. So we've been SMS-ing for a while until we decided to meet up.

He wanted to come over and sleep at my place. I waited for him at the LRT station but did not see him walk out. I called him and realized that he had walked past me and did not recognize him. Bad right?

He did not look at all like his photos. Photogenic means looking good in a photo, not that good in real life. But he was already there... and got a nice ass for a slim boy... hehehe...

So we made our way to the house. He was all quiet and walked behind me. Did not whether he was enjoying the view or just did not wanna be seen with me. Anyways, once we got to the house, he went through everything I own and kept thumbing my things. He even grabbed my Buffy the Vampire Slayer action figure and started to thumb it aggrassively. I think I heard something snapped so I told him to put it down. Good God if he destroyed that action figure, I am gonna kick his ass.

After checking and verifying that Buffy was indeed safe and unharmed, I told him to go shower while I ate something. Then I showered and told him to get ready for bed. Did not really think I could get it up coz I was still simmering over the fact that he had endangered Buffy. Faith had already been destroyed months ago when she fell off of her pedestal... :(

He cozied up to me and started to touch Holden Jr. So I touched him. Dude's packing heat. A huge one! Daymn! Lucky he's the bottom. Or maybe it's unlucky for the other bottoms that he's a bottom... :P

He put Holden Jr in his mouth and brought him to life. He's pretty good by the way. But he could not really do them nipples. Sigh. After a while, it was my turn to do him. His cock was definitely a mouthful. His G-spot seemed to be his nipples. He was squirming like crazy.

Once I suited up, I lifted his legs onto my shoulders and penetrated him. He moaned but I did not stop until I was in to the hilt. I started fucking him but something was off. It's as though he's not limber at all. His body was stiff. The fucking was not that nice coz every time I push in, his entire body moved.

And everytime I try to make him loosen up, it did not work at all... So I decided to switch positions. I got him on all fours and fucked him doggie style. This was way better. I could feel the fucking, hehehe... I fucked him hard and deep... and I reached under and grabbed his cock. It was hard like a stone. Then I got this idea of having him ride my cock and watch the bazooka he's packing bounce up and down as he bounce up and down my cock. Hot as hell. If only I could record it... sigh...

So I took my dick out and lied on my back. I told him to sit on it. But then... suddenly something wafted to my nostril. Son of a... God dammit. He soooo neglected to clean. What kind of bottom is he? And it's not like it's a spur of the moment sex. It was planned. Sigh...

Bazooka Dick did not seem to smell it. He was attempting to get my dick into his ass. I, for one, was weirded out and grossed out so Holden Jr was starting to sleep. I pushed him off and told him to go clean up. Blergh...

After that, I just decided to sleep. Too grossed out. But he was all cuddly wuddly and put his bazooka in my hand. So I stroked it to life and he was moaning and moaning. He reached over and tweaked my nipples. But even then, he did not do it well. I know he was about to cum coz his entire body twitched so I turned him around, sheathed, and penetrated.

This time, I only cared about my orgasm and fucked him really hard and deep. And attempting really hard to forget the whole Belgian Chocolate incident earlier. I finally achieved orgasm and went to clean up. Lucky for me, this time, there was no nasty surprise at the end of the condomed cock.

Aussie Bum 2

The next night, the Home Town Guy arrived and I saw him eyeing The Tall One. Once we were in the TV room, he asked me if the Aussie guys would wanna play.

I asked them and they give me the green light. The fourgy would be on.

The Home Town Guy was kinda sexcited. It helped a lot when we enter the bedroom that they were already naked and sprawled on the bed.

HTG went straight to TTO and they made out. The Other One got him naked and played with HTG's body. I stood there and watched. Quite a sight. :)

So basically me and TOO were sitting back and watching HTG and TTO making out. TTO gave TOO a look and he immediately went down on me and sucked me hard.

Soon as I was ready, TTO sat up and let HTG suck his long hard dick. Then, TTO told me to fuck HTG.

I was hesitant a bit because HTG had told me that he was a top but HTG heard the command and he did not even budge from his position and kept on sucking TTO's cock. HTG was in some sort of trance I think.

Since there was no resistance on his part, I suited up and penetrated. HTG's moans were muffled by the cock in his mouth. His body stiffened a bit but I pressed on, ever so slightly though.

As soon as I penetrated fully, he stopped sucking cock and turned around to look at me. It was kinda dark but I was pretty sure he was pleading with his eyes. But before he could do anything, TTO grabbed his face and they started kissing.

TOO gave me a pat on the back and I started fucking HTG. After a while, the tune of the moan became different and he was writhing beneath me while having his mouth filled with cock. TTO started playing with my ass with his fingers.

Suddenly, my phone rang. I knew it was my friend wanting his camera. But I ignored at first, until HTG told me he could not take it anymore. So I pulled out and answered the phone. I did not even have to tell them I had to go downstairs. TTO had already positioned himself to fuck HTG.

Cut to: 10 minutes later. I came back and saw that everybody was done. HTG said TTO fucked him for a little while and then TTO came, so they stopped playing.

I was not done though so when HTG and I were lazing around in the TV room, I reached over and fondled him. He did not say anything so I got him naked and started sucking him. He moaned loudly. Suddenly I realized that he probably did not squirt yet. And of course, I'd wanna squirt deep in him so I rimmed him. He immediately raised his legs and writhed wildly.

I got the condom from the other room (TOO noticed and muttered approvingly) and I fucked HTG again. This time, he did not resist much. He even switched positions so that he'd be on top and he rode me like a pro, all the while masturbating his hard cock.

He came on top of me, while riding my dick. It's always hot to fuck tops, especially when they come while getting fucked...

Threesome Part 2

Previously on Oxymoronic Existence 4.0

Suddenly, my phone rang. It was the new trick. He was arriving. I sent the other two on their way. Chi Guy wanted more and asked for my number. I felt quite happy, even though I did not come. I deflowered another top. And I am making sure I fuck the new trick until I cum...

As soon as the two guys left, I showered to get the 'recently fucking' scent off of me. What? I gotta maintain a sense of discreetness. Can't let them know I have been screwing around before them. They have feelings and I try to make them feel special. Coz I like to feel special... :)

So he arrives and off we went to the TV room. We got to talking. He doesn't appear to be interested in having sex. I tested the waters by leaning against him on the sofa. He chuckled a bit so I guess he wasn't interested in cuddling either. So wat the frak is he doing at my place? Hmmm...

He seemed a bit more interested in my book collection and my DVD collection. He was telling me all about himself, his work and his life.

Then he commented on my profile. Saying that it was the most interesting and most human of profiles. Really? Hmm...

He said it was the profile that led him to message me. So let me get this queer, he is not interested in my body at all? There goes the sexin' then... sigh...

After more small talk, he suddenly said that he wanted to get it on if I was willing to get it on with him. Bingo! Like I said before, I am fucking him until I cum...

So we adjourned to the bedroom where we quickly get our clothes off. He laid there, like a dead fish. Sigh. Why do these people do this? If Ryan Reynolds (or any man of your choosing) laid in my bed and waited for me to pleasure him, I'd be delighted to do so... but this guy's not even a looker. Sigh.

So I did the usual stuff. Nipple play, cock sucking. Then he mounted me and I slapped his ass. He grunted approvingly so I spanked him some more. Then I flipped him over on his stomach while I lick the whole of his back. Until I get to the ass. Then I rimmed him and got ready to mount him. He nodded. I got the green light so I fucked him.

It was quite a long fuck too considering I had fucked someone earlier. Up to a point where he asked if I could just stuff it in between his legs and humped. Amy Winehouse, take it away. "No, no, no!"

I told him to bear with me for a little while longer. Which was not a lie. Soon as I came, I pulled out and cleaned up. He said that it was quite a good session for him and he was wondering if I was into threesomes.

Apparently, he has a younger boyfriend and he was willing to let me plow the boyfriend's ass just like I did with his. He said the bf is a bottom. I told him I'd gladly do them both. :)

Aussie Bum

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Housemate

Because of certain bitches, I mean, work sitches... I am forced to give up my bachelor pad... the one that saw many a conquest come and go the past year and a half... sigh...

But the silver lining is that, my new housemate is kinda one of my regulars... and while we're fixing/renovating/cleaning up, we've done all kinds of touching and groping... so guess if I am really in need of an ass to plow, I can just tap the housemate's... but that would be too easy now, wouldn't it? Hheheeh

Threesome

It was a Sunday night. I was home early and was bored. I called one of my new tricks and asked if he wanted to come over. He could only come over after 10pm.

So I surfed the Net and almost succumbed to fatigue when I got a call from another trick who I've never met yet but kept in touch via SMS. He said he was nearby and was with a date. They were looking for a place to get it on. So a threesome it is...

It took them quite a while to get to my place. After a couple of phone calls, they managed to find their way to my place.

The trick asked if he could pray first. I stifled a laugh coz he was serious. Not that I was laughing that he wanted to pray. I was laughing because we were about to do some serious threesome sex and he wanted to face God first. It was absurd.

Anyways, while he was praying and stuff, his date was making small talk with me. After a minute, his hand went straight to groping my cock. Looks like we're starting the party already.

So I took him to the bedroom and he undressed me and immediately started sucking my cock. Pretty good cocksucker, this slim chinese guy. I pushed him on the bed and laid down next to him. He resumed sucking my cock. I reached for his cock and he said not to fondle him so much coz he cums fast. That's not really a good criteria for a top now is it?

Then, as I guided his mouth to my nipples, the Malay guy finished praying and went into the bedroom. But he just stood there and watched us. He was more interested at going through my stuff. He left the room and went to the TV room. I knew he was gonna go rifle through my things. I sent the Chi Guy to get him and bring him to the room.

He undressed and joined us in bed. The Chi Guy immediately sucked his cock. He moaned and cursed. He also told the Chi Guy to not suck so verociously coz he cums fast. Dammit. Not sure if this will end well. He also said that he has a stomach ache and he can't get fucked. Dammit. Why are you here at my place then? Sigh.

I licked his nipple and again he moaned and cursed. Then he told me to fuck the Chi Guy. I thought he was top... The Malay Guy told the Chi Guy that I was gonna fuck him. He scoffed and said he was top. But the Malay Guy gestured for me to go to town on his ass while he held Chi Guy who was busy sucking.

I sheathed the condom on and lubed up. The Chi Guy sensed something was up and stopped sucking. I lubed his asshole and he went crazy, trying to escape that position. Unfortunately, both of us were holding him down. In the end, he resumed sucking the cock and waited.

I positioned myself and penetrated. He was wild. Thrashing about but mouth still full with cock. I took it out and calmed him down long enough to poke through the second time. He moaned and stiffened. I let him get used to it and then started fucking. The Malay Guy moved out from under the Chi Guy and watched as I fuck the top.

After a couple of minutes, I could feel Chi Guy started to enjoy the fucking. He was backing into me and meeting my thrusts. He even leaned back on me while I fucked him in the doggy position.

I told him to stroke the Malay Guy until cumming and vice versa. The Malay Guy came first. The Chi Guy kept switching positions on me. One minute it was doggy, the next it was reverse missionary, then it would be him on his knees, leaning against me.

I faked an orgasm because the Chi Guy kept asking if I had cum or not and the Malay Guy seemed a bit restless since his part was over. But then, the Chi Guy asked me to continue fucking him.

Suddenly, my phone rang. It was the new trick. He was arriving. I sent the other two on their way. Chi Guy wanted more and asked for my number. I felt quite happy, even though I did not come. I deflowered another top. And I am making sure I fuck the new trick until I cum...

Massage Oil Part 3

So Massage Oil Guy still continues his... shouldn't say harassment... more like, um, quest, to get back on to my good side.

He knows that he has angered the diva, I mean, he has pissed me off. Rightfully so.

So when he asks if I am free, and I say I was working, he'd let it go. Let's not forget the apologies.

Finally, my schedule opens up and we make a date for him to come over to my place and spend the night.

He once told me he was familiar with Permaisuri so I gave him the address and told him to just come up to my place. He agreed.

But, suddenly, that night, he messaged me, asking me to meet him at the LRT station. Bitch, please. I ain't gonna schlepp all the way from my flat for you.

Told him off and waited for him to arrive. He got here and asked if he could shower. Then we watched Mentor finale before we move to the bedroom for sleeping. And sex, of course. Heheheh.

This time 'round, I was prepared. No more massage oils. Hello regular lube.

I did not feel like kissing so went straight to the nipple play. His nipple is not really playable but I worked around it and then attacked the ears and the neck.

Then I went down on him. Cock, balls, and asshole. He moaned and raised his hips a bit so I got in there further. After a while, I stopped and laid back and let him do the work.

His nipple play hasn't really improved. In like one minute, he got the nipple once. Sigh.

But his cock sucking skills were not bad. It was enjoyable. Ordinarily I'd hand the guy a condom and lube and have him sit on my hard cock but I know this guy would not really know how it's done.

So I went back to licking his hole, making sure he was ready to be fucked. Once he was sufficiently wet, I did the nipples again while reaching for the condom and lube. I suited up and prepared to penetrate. He asked me to be gentle.

I did not even poke through the ring when he hissed in pain. I let my cock head stay there but he looked like he was in pain. So I took it out and reapplied lube and poked again.

Managed to poke through without much drama but I still let him get used to it. I put his legs on my shoulders and started the slow pumping. After a while, he got used to it and stopped making painful expressions.

So I went to town and fucked him good. Then I turned him on his stomach to prepare for the final journey to Planet Spurtzz. I entered him and lay on top of him and fucked him until I come. After the cleanup, we went to bed.

In the morning, I was woken up by him, all dressed up and ready for work. I let him out and checked my belongings. Everything's still there. Went back to bad and overslept and was late for work that day. Sigh...

Sarawak Top

I felt cheated.

And of course I am pouting.

Met up with one guy from Gayromeo (formerly Guys4Men)...

He came from Sarawak for an event here and he had contacted me two weeks before.

Obviously, the sex talk would come up. I'd told him I was the top and he said that he doesn't mind getting fucked. Great! I was all excited. Someone new. hehhehe...

So I made time to meet him up at his hotel room. Which was not that easy to find. And then, he had the nerve to tell me he was not in. Went out for dinner with frens. Son of a...

So I went to Kg Baru and had myself a very good meal, while waiting for him. He returned an hour and a half later. I let it go coz I wanted a piece of that ass, hehehe, and he was new so he did not know my rules yet.

I got to the hotel room and we chatted a bit. Until he decided it was time for bed.

So we climbed in and cuddled. He wasted no time in reaching for my cock. A good sign indeed. But then, he kept coughing and stuff so there was no making out.

I grabbed his cock and it came to life. Man. It was thick.

He asked me to suck it so I did, and of course, I'd do them balls and start to move down towards the hole.

He never opened his legs much but I was persistent so I licked still. He moaned and pulled on my hair and ears and poked my ears with his fingers. WTF??

Then, I asked if he has lube and condom. He asked me back.

"Why? U wanna get fucked?"

Dude. WTF??

He said he's a top. He even put it in his profile. I argued. He told me otherwise. He said he really wanted to meet me so he lied. What a bitch!!

So I put back my clothes and told him to go to sleep. )%&(%^&$%$^&%^&

Cut to the morning, he took me to breakfast and it was the lamest continental breakfast I've ever had. Good God, this was such a bad date and/or lay. Crossing him off of the list now...

Almost...

It was a Friday. I had taken leave to go back to hometown to see my nephew, for his birthday. But I took an extra day off so I could rest up on Friday since I would be working both Saturday and Sunday.

I had been in touch with this guy from Manjam for a while. He works in a hotel so his day off changes. This month, his day off was on Friday. So I arranged for a hookup.

When he arrived in the morning at the LRT station, I went and picked him up. He was not too bad, body's slim and nice. So we went back to my place. He mentioned that he needed to go back early coz he had to pack for a trip the next day. Fine by me.

So immediately, we got it started. After the initial over the clothes action, I got him naked and we adjourned to the bedroom.

He apparently could not stand nipple play. He'd tense up but the moans coming from him told me he enjoyed it. So I just concentrated on that to get him in the mood. Of course I gave him a blow job and all. The usual. But for some reason, I was really gunning for the asshole. Go figure right?

New territory and all. Hhehehee...

After I licked him all over, I positioned myself right there and asked if he was ready. He asked me to put a condom on and lubed up coz he had not had anal sex in 4 months...

I suited up and attempted penetration. Quite tight. Once I was in, he tensed up again. I stopped pushing in and just let him get used to the penetration. After a while, I pushed through, to the hilt. He moaned.

I waited a while. Again. Then, I started the fucking. But I barely get any movement done when he started to move away from my body. Must be in pain or uncomfortable. So I took it out.

He asked me why I took it out. I shrugged and attempted to re-enter. That's when I see it. The brown spot at the tip of the condom. Ewwww.

I immediately lost my erection and went to the toilet to clean up.

Apparently, he did not know what had happened. Guess they can't smell their own poop? *shrugs*

So he still expected to get it on. I've lost my erection for the whole week so I went into nipple play mode and doused his cock with lube. I jacked him off while he was moaning from the nipple play.

After five strokes, he moaned and came. Doused the side of my face even. Sigh. Now I have to go wash up again. Sigh.

He cleaned up and left immediately after that. Man! Now I need someone to raise me up again... heheheh...

Massage Oil Part 2

Massage Oil Guy got weird with me after our initial encounter.

He kept asking me to come over to his place. Every single night after. I guess he doesn't get that I am a workaholic who's married to my job.

I told him I was working but he still insisted I come over.

Even when I told him I was going back to home town to see family, he insisted I come over first before I leave... what the..????

And when I am out with frens, he'd get upset that I was not spending time with him instead...

What is this? A relationship? I know I popped his cherry but he has a girlfriend and did not say or indicate he wanted more... plus, I'd only known him for less than a few weeks... I am not gonna ditch frens and/or work for him...

So one night, he sent me a message saying that I was just using him for sex. Which was kinda true... but I did not intend for that to happen. I just got busy.

I never replied but then he kept messaging and messaging, up to a point where he kept apologizing. Asking for my forgiveness. Guess he figured out the silent treatment means I am angry.

Finally I responded. Damn straight I was angry. I told him nicely that I have plans laid out already (birthday month - mine and nephew) so I was really busy... but he got weird and demanded the time that I don't have so screw him... and not literally... sigh...

Massage Oil

I have been sleeping in the office lately... mostly coz of morning shift, which is like at 4 or 5am and on Fridays, I have to produce a program and it takes quite long to finish... it'd be 2 in the morning so I sleep in the office and then go back in the morning...

One morning, I made a date with a guy from myspace who lives in Pandan Jaya. So convenient with the LRT nearby and all.

He'd been messaging me at myspace for over a week, asking to meet me. He's bisexual, has a girlfriend and had only done one blowjob in his life. There's two ways this could go about happening... One, he'd wanna top... Two, I get to pop cherry...

We talked about it and I told him I was a total top, which is a lie but he doesn't need to know that... ehhehehe... He was hesitant about getting fucked coz he was afraid it would hurt... I assured him I'd take the greatest of care and fuck him without hurting him. Much. What? He was a virgin. It's gonna hurt no matter what...

So we met. I went to his place, which was conveniently a stone's throw from the LRT station. His housemates were all not around so we did it in the living room.

Oh, did I mention he's a young'un... 21 years old... but he did not look like it... he looked like my cousin actually, who I had a crush on since forever... so it did not take much to persuade me, hehehe...

He's not slim, quite meaty actually, which was fine by me... :)

He was all flustered and kept apologizing for being a virgin and for not knowing what to do much... so sweet...

We started by kissing, easing him into the whole thing... he did not really know how to do that, which was expected. He kept leaving his mouth open. As much as I love to shove my tongue down a throat like the next guy, I want the nice romantic kiss too. Lips against lips... sigh...

I worked his nipples and move on to the cock and balls. He did not moan or anything. He just kept quiet. But I know he was enjoying it coz his body was so relaxed.

Anyways, I made him go on top of me and he imitated what I did with his nipples. Cool. Fast learner.

After I felt satisfied with the nipple work, I asked him to lie on his stomach and I licked his back, starting from the ass cheeks up. Then of course I'd rim him for good measure and fingered him a bit here and there. He tensed immediately so I switched gears and neck him for a while.

Which he wanted to return the favor by giving me a huge hickey. I did not know it at the time but I felt him biting me, which I very much enjoyed coz of my vampire fetish. So I gave him some hickeys as well.

Then, the moment of truth. I only had condoms in my bag. No lube and he only had massage oil. He said that it was just oil and not one of those oil that's hot. So it could work.

I used the oil to lube his asshole and fingered him good and proper. He tensed again but he relaxed soon enough. I asked if it hurt and he said no. I mounted him and ask if he's ready for the fucking. He told me to go ahead.

I put on a condom and oiled up and aimed for the virgin hole. He squirmed and moaned when the cock head was pushing through. He said it was painful. I stopped and applied more oil. He said it was still painful.

I told him it would be. But only for a little while. The third try, I aimed to get it all in. He tensed up again when the cock head poked through. I stopped and let him get used to it before going completely in. His body stopped tensing and he did not moan in pain so I assumed he got used to it. I started moving my hips and fucking him slowly.

He started moaning but a different kind of moan. I asked if it hurts and he said it did. A little. He can take it, he said. So I started increasing the pace of the fucking and he moaned louder this time. He grabbed my hand with one hand, and the other hand grabbed my hip, as though telling me not to stop.

I took the cue and fucked the hell out of him. Until I came. The condom stayed in his ass. I had to pull real hard. After I cleaned up, I asked if it hurt. He said it stopped hurting and he felt really good.

Guess I broke in another one...