Busy...

Last week, I was very busy. On Wednesday, I fucked a passive bottom. Too passive for my liking. Then I was called to a threesome but something came up so that did not happen. Just before bedtime, two guys came over and I played with them, separately though. Apparently they are friends and could not fathom the idea of seeing each other naked. They’ve tried it once before and none of them could get it up.

I did not even know that these two were friends. I chatted with them on separate occasions. The first guy, Bangi Guy, is short, has a slight belly, bald but kinda cute. The second one, Kajang Guy, is totally hot and droolworthy, almost as tall as me and has a nice body.

We started out by playing Dead or Alive on X-Box. I did not know if they came over to have fun or just wanted to hang out. I know they won’t exactly play together so I thought I’d let them be comfortable first. I could tell that Bangi Guy wanted more than get his ass kicked on X-Box because he kept leaning into me and touching me discreetly. Kajang Guy was a little more restrained so maybe he did not wanna play.

After 2 hours of kicking their asses, Bangi Guy went into the room to lie down. He has to go to work at 7 and it was already 3. Once he was inside, Kajang Guy sidled up next to me and his hand started to touch me right there. But since his ass was kicked, he concentrated while I play with one hand on the controller and the other kneading him into hardness. Looks like he wanted to play after all.

In the meantime, Bangi Guy sends me SMSes saying that he was horny and wants to blow me. To be honest, I was far into Kajang Guy than Bangi Guy so I ignored Bangi Guy for now. Kajang Guy could not take it anymore and went into the room to tell Bangi Guy to nap first while we go at it in the next room. Bangi Guy agreed.

We stripped immediately. For a hot guy, he was like a log. Not his dick. Him! He did not do much. Just lied there. He’s so lucky that he’s hot and that I’ve wanted to suck his dick for months now. I licked him all over and yes girls, he was yummy. Then, he wanted to lick me. And bite. Ooh. Heaven. However, he refused to suck my dick. Said he was a total top. Utter bullshit. He wanted to fuck me in the ass but I refused. If he had sucked my cock, on top of biting me and letting me kiss him, then I would have ridden him until he was sore. However, he was being an ass so I ain’t letting him in mine. He just dry humped me until he came.

After I cleaned up, I went to my room to see if Bangi Guy is still up for some fun...

To be continued...

Bored

Guess I am back after all. I just kicked out one guy from my place. Man, he sucked. Figuratively. The bad meaning. Not literally. He did not even touch me. This was my first time being with someone and there’s no foreplay, no intro, nothing. He immediately stripped and asked me to fuck him.

I was turned off by that but hey, a gurl’s gotta fuck right? So I did. Halfway through, he complained that he was tired. Hey, who’s idea was it to go for the doggie style? So I flipped him over onto his back and fucked him senseless.

Then he announced that he needed to pee. After that, we continued on doggie style until he announced he was tired. Again. Sigh. So he hopped off the bed and asked me to attempt a doggie with the assistance of the bed. Meaning, he laid his body on the bed while his ass hang in the air and his knees were on the floor.

However, the time he took setting himself up and the various change in position, I had failed to maintain the erection. I had to use my hand to get erect. But, once I saw brown spots on the condom, I got turned off and told him that I could not get hard. He grabbed the lube and tried to get me back to life.

Unfortunately, I was too grossed out to be aroused. I chided him on the various position change and went to clean up. He got ready and promptly left. But not before he asked me if I would answer his SMSes? I would, as long as I have credit. Then he said he’d SMS me to finish what we started. Yeah, good luck. As slutty as I am, I still need the foreplay and the licking and the sucking and all that jazz.

Back for Good?

Hmm. This is weird. I've never realized that I am so sentimental. Oxymoronic's been with me for three years now. We've survived breakups, heartaches, job troubles, catfighting with friends etc. It's hard to let go.

Am I back? Maybe. I have started blogging elsewhere, in case anybody's wondering (but I am not about to reveal the new address yet).

The first quarter of 2007 is a tough one for me but I do have a silver lining in my dark clouds.

Watch this space...

End of Days

Every beginning has to have an ending. As clichéd as it may sound, but it’s true. I have tried many times to end this blog. No matter how hard I wanted to, I just could not. I love this blog and I love writing and I love the fact that I get free therapy sessions.

People have got the wrong impression of me. That I am a slutwhore trying to do every guy in town. That is not true. For the most part. Heheheh. I enjoy sex, sure, but there are times when I could behave normally and not think of sex.

The blog has started to rule my life. Sometimes I do things that I don’t really wanna do but I do it anyway because it would so sensational in the blog. I engage in sextivities for the sake of a post. Sometimes I don’t even like the guy but I did him anyway because it would give me something to write about.

This blog used to be my venue to vent. But now it’s all about delivering steamy stories. Even the people in my life has a hard time differentiating between me and my blog persona. Yes, there is a difference. I am actually quite the shy, reticent guy. Not at all the sexpot I’ve turned out to be. People think they know me and what I would do because they think they have an inside scoop on how my mind works just from reading the blog. This is the last straw that broke the coffin.

I have been deliberating about this for quite some time. It’s time I stopped this blog. It feels so wrong whenever I have to defend myself and my character from people who’d think that all I do, all I have to offer and all that is me, is sex. Contrary to popular belief, sex doesn’t run my life. I used to blog every day, about all kinds of things but now I am only known as Slutty Sluttenstein, and not Holden Summers.

It has to stop. I gotta get back to the real me. I gotta get back to what’s important in my life. Family, friends and career. Everything else will have to be put on hold until I find the real me, again. A very wise Cady Heron has said that once you get bitten by a snake, you’ve got to suck the poison out. This is what I am attempting to do.

Thanks for reading and thanks for the support you’ve given me! Luv ya bitchies! *muahs* For those of you who are still interested (which I highly doubt), I'll resurface sooner or later for sure. I guess if you really were a loyal reader, you'd know the writer would be me, even under all that cloak and daggers.

P/S – No, I am not trying to be fashionable and following the ending of blog trend that is the rage these days. The last post of 2006 was intended to be my last post. But I chickened out. I guess it’s hard to let go of the safe and the familiar and venture forth into the unknown.