Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Memory Lane

I am not sure why but I am feeling nostalgic. All of a sudden. Hmmm…

Anyways, I wanna take you all down memory lane. Let’s reminisce to a time of innocence. Or should I say, loss of innocence. Hheheeh.

Yup, the day I lost my virginity.

It all started with the internet and IRC. Like my stories ever started with anything but the internet and IRC.

I was still new to KL and to the fabulous world of fags. I did not know much but I was introseduced to the IRC by my MIS classmates. So I went to a cybercafe and chatted away.

This was when I stayed in PJ and was studying, right before I left for the States.

I was chatting away but not really hooking anyone until one guy started messaging me. It seemed like he was interested but of course I would not really know back then.

It turned out I had chatted with him once before. He told me that his deepest, darkest fantasy was to get skewered by a chubby guy and since I fit the description, he was willing to come and meet me. He even fit me in between dropping his nieces off for tuition and picking them up again. It turned me on but it also turned me off a bit. Hey, I was brand new at this whole meet-and-fuck deal.

He told me he won’t force me to do anything I did not wanna do but he was really desperate to go out of the house. He was bored and wanted to see me and have a chat.

No harm in chatting right? Okay, before I continue, I must say that I was religiously educated so I was still a bit apprehensive about embracing my True Gayness. Not to be confused with True Fitness.

So I went back home and waited for him to show up. At the back of my mind, I did not expect anything to happen. What are the chances of him showing up? Slim to none. This was when I had very, very, very low self esteem. Not that I am a highly confident woman now but I have bloomed into a lovely young woman now.

Anywho, I was pleasantly surprised when I saw him arriving at my place. Or should I say my dorm. Don’t worry, there was no one around. Everybody’s gone home for some reason. I did not exchange photos with him because I did not have one and I did not know the proper etiquette for internet hookups back then.

He was shorter than me. Quite muscular. Stocky. Seemed like a regular at the gym. Tanned. Malay. He seemed a bit shifty though. Not sure why.

I brought him to my room. He engaged me in small talk. He leaned down on the bed, almost like he was lying down. I could see his muscular chest and tight abs and I was kinda aroused.

After 15 minutes of idle chatter, he asked me if I liked what I saw. Well, duh! He said he liked what he saw too so he stood up and proceeded to strip naked. I was even more aroused. Not with actual hard on but it was more like sexcitement. Also, afraid. Yes, fear was right up there with anticipation.

What? Twas my first time. Before this, my fagtivities were only restricted to masturbation and the occasional cop-a-feels with my hottie cousins. Yes, yes, it’s disturbing but what’s a girl to do with all that pent-up sexual energies? I was back at my hometown living under my family’s tyranny. And I did not even know what’s gonna happen next. I mean, I knew what was gonna happen next but I did not really know, ya know?

I was a virgin and I hadn’t even watched a single porno movie. Okay, gay porno. I saw straight porn before and my eyes always go straight to the guy. Ehheheheh.

Anyways, he went to me and hugged me and proceeded to strip me. He asked again if I was okay to proceed. I was. But I did not know what to do. Stupidly enough, I told him. He laughed. Not sure if it was a ‘God, you’re pathetic’ laugh or ‘Wow, an actual virgin’ or ‘Yay! I get to deflower a tight ass!’ but he laughed all the same. It was a short burst of laughter, not rolling on the floor laughing.

He said he’d teach me what to do. I was like a blank canvas and he was the painter. Since I did not know what to do, I asked him to fuck me. Or do things to me coz I would not know what to do otherwise. He gave me a look that I did not understand…


P/S - please dun hate me but it's a two-parter again... hihihii

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Before Sunrise 2

Previously on Oxymoronic Existence...

He stripped and laid next to me on the bed. He grabbed my groin and rubbed it to life. He stripped me and said that it was huge and that I really oughta not fuck his ass. And that he should be the only one to top.


I was not in the mood to be fucked. It was too early in the morning. Okay, okay, it was 8.30 but I had a late night out with friends.

I said nothing and just lay there and waited for him to make the move. He did. He took me in the mouth and worked it for quite some time. Then he went and did the nipples, teasing with bites. Oooh.

He licked my whole body, which was a nice way to get me in the mood by the way. Oops, did I just reveal the secret to making me a bottom?

Anyways, it was my turn next. He laid on the bed and I started doing my thing. Normally I’d start out with a kiss but I wasn’t really in the mood for kissing so I just licked and tease-bit his neck. Then I move on to his nipples, making my way down to his hard cock.

After blowing him for a while, I started to lick his balls and make my way down to his asshole. He eagerly opened his legs for my tongue. I could tell he was trying to keep the moaning to a minimum because he knew my sister was in the next room.

When he was wet enough, I inserted a finger into him and sucked his cock. He moaned loudly this time. But he would not let me finger him for long. He got up and pushed me down on the bed and licked my ass. He asked if he could fuck me. If I said yes, he’d let me fuck him after. I guess there’s really no harm in it so I let him.

He licked my ass more, getting me ready. Then he lubed up and put on a condom. I told him to go slow. I lay on my stomach while waiting for him to suit up. I don’t know why I am more comfortable in that position.

He inserted himself slowly at first. Okay, I could take it. It’s been a while but no pain so yay! He went to town almost immediately. No pain still but slight discomfort. I told him to move things along quickly. He asked me to lie on my back. He grabbed my legs and put it on his shoulders.

He inserted himself again and went at it. At first I felt discomfort to a point where it was too much. But then he kept his strokes short, possibly because he was near climax. It felt pleasurable. But, as Nelly Furtado would say, “Why do all good things come to an end?”

Yup, he came. I sighed, both from relief and dissatisfaction. Just when I was enjoying it. Sigh.

So we washed up and he reminded me that it was my turn. He laid on his stomach and told me to take it slow.

I saddled up and inserted myself into him. He moaned and ground his ass against me so I fucked him hard. Guess he was ready to be fucked. As soon as I was about to cum, I bit him on the shoulder. I don’t know why though. I just felt like it. When I came, he told me to not take it out first. So I laid on top of him for a while.

After he got cleaned up, he left and I let my sister out of the room and she announced that she had to pee so bad but she did not wanna disturb my fucking session so she held it in. Hehehehe.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Before Sunrise

I’ve known this guy for more than a year now. He used to date my ex house mate. Okay, maybe ‘date’ is not exactly the most appropriate word seeing that he has a boyfriend.

What is it with me and unavailable boys??

Anyways, I’ve chatted with him many times before. Even contacted via sms. He said he wanted to meet up but he was busy working and he has no transport. So I wrote him off as ‘Not Interested’.

Suddenly, last month, he started to contact me back. Not sure why.

He contacted me via YM. We chatted for a bit and he asked if I was seeing anyone. Of course I answered I was single. Which I am.

He asked if I was too choosy. I wanted to punch his face in. Why does everybody keep asking me that? “You’re single? Hmm, you must be choosy then.” Argh!!! Why is it my fault that I am single? It’s like telling… ah, forget it… moving on…

So I told him that nobody finds me attractive. What? I have low self esteem issues.

Then he said he found me attractive. Awww. I take my punch back. Hehehehhe.

I thought he was kidding but he was not. In fact, he was persistent in wanting to hook up with me. Unfortunately, he said that he was a top. Even though I am flexible, I am choosy when it comes to those I let top me.

After an intense negotiation, he said that he’d let me top him if he gets to top me. Sounds good to me. Unfortunately, he was only available and free during the weekend where I had a million errands to do and people to see and stuff.

He was persistent and insistent. He was willing to get up at the crack (hihihi, crack) of dawn, take the KTM, then the LRT and walk to my place. He did not even care if my sister was at my place that time. Yup, she came to KL to meet her boyfriend. The apple did not fall far from the tree there.

So he came and I quietly took him into my room. Even though my sister knows I suck cock and knows that I was gonna get it on, I pretended that my sister was gonna explode if she found out. I think it turned him on more. Hehehe.

He stripped and laid next to me on the bed. He grabbed my groin and rubbed it to life. He stripped me and said that it was huge and that I really oughta not fuck his ass. And that he should be the only one to top.

To be continued…