Every beginning has to have an ending. As clichéd as it may sound, but it’s true. I have tried many times to end this blog. No matter how hard I wanted to, I just could not. I love this blog and I love writing and I love the fact that I get free therapy sessions.
People have got the wrong impression of me. That I am a slutwhore trying to do every guy in town. That is not true. For the most part. Heheheh. I enjoy sex, sure, but there are times when I could behave normally and not think of sex.
The blog has started to rule my life. Sometimes I do things that I don’t really wanna do but I do it anyway because it would so sensational in the blog. I engage in sextivities for the sake of a post. Sometimes I don’t even like the guy but I did him anyway because it would give me something to write about.
This blog used to be my venue to vent. But now it’s all about delivering steamy stories. Even the people in my life has a hard time differentiating between me and my blog persona. Yes, there is a difference. I am actually quite the shy, reticent guy. Not at all the sexpot I’ve turned out to be. People think they know me and what I would do because they think they have an inside scoop on how my mind works just from reading the blog. This is the last straw that broke the coffin.
I have been deliberating about this for quite some time. It’s time I stopped this blog. It feels so wrong whenever I have to defend myself and my character from people who’d think that all I do, all I have to offer and all that is me, is sex. Contrary to popular belief, sex doesn’t run my life. I used to blog every day, about all kinds of things but now I am only known as Slutty Sluttenstein, and not Holden Summers.
It has to stop. I gotta get back to the real me. I gotta get back to what’s important in my life. Family, friends and career. Everything else will have to be put on hold until I find the real me, again. A very wise Cady Heron has said that once you get bitten by a snake, you’ve got to suck the poison out. This is what I am attempting to do.
Thanks for reading and thanks for the support you’ve given me! Luv ya bitchies! *muahs* For those of you who are still interested (which I highly doubt), I'll resurface sooner or later for sure. I guess if you really were a loyal reader, you'd know the writer would be me, even under all that cloak and daggers.
P/S – No, I am not trying to be fashionable and following the ending of blog trend that is the rage these days. The last post of 2006 was intended to be my last post. But I chickened out. I guess it’s hard to let go of the safe and the familiar and venture forth into the unknown.
